When God says the end of a season is here.

Have you ever felt stuck in a place that you know God is calling you out of? After twenty years, Jacob knows he has to leave. So he calls his two wives to meet him in the fields. This discussion must not be overheard. The season of their life with their husband, Jacob, serving their father, was well and truly coming to an end. There are moments when we should absolutely not linger a moment more. Knowing that God is with you is all that matters.

So Jacob sent word to Rachel and Leah to come out to the fields where his flocks were. He said to them, “I see that your father’s attitude toward me is not what it was before, but the God of my father has been with me. You know that I’ve worked for your father with all my strength, yet your father has cheated me by changing my wages ten times. However, God has not allowed him to harm me. If he said, ‘The speckled ones will be your wages,’ then all the flocks gave birth to speckled young; and if he said, ‘The streaked ones will be your wages,’ then all the flocks bore streaked young. So God has taken away your father’s livestock and has given them to me. 10 “In breeding season I once had a dream in which I looked up and saw that the male goats mating with the flock were streaked, speckled or spotted. 11 The angel of God said to me in the dream, ‘Jacob.’ I answered, ‘Here I am.’ 12 And he said, ‘Look up and see that all the male goats mating with the flock are streaked, speckled or spotted, for I have seen all that Laban has been doing to you. 13 I am the God of Bethel, where you anointed a pillar and where you made a vow to me. Now leave this land at once and go back to your native land.’” 14 Then Rachel and Leah replied, “Do we still have any share in the inheritance of our father’s estate? 15 Does he not regard us as foreigners? Not only has he sold us, but he has used up what was paid for us. 16 Surely all the wealth that God took away from our father belongs to us and our children. So do whatever God has told you.” 17 Then Jacob put his children and his wives on camels, 18 and he drove all his livestock ahead of him, along with all the goods he had accumulated in Paddan Aram,to go to his father Isaac in the land of Canaan.” (Genesis 31:4-18)

May we, like Jacob, be attentive and courageous enough to notice when a season has ended.

  • God’s presence doesn’t need a pleasant environment

God had been with Jacob through every shift in wages, every manipulation, and He was with him during this hostility despite his faithfulness to Laban. Where you are is not always where you are meant to remain. But God is faithful in every location.

  • God speaks before He sends

Jacob received a dream, a confirmation, a divine “I have seen.” God does not typically ask us to move in total silence. He prepares the heart before He moves the feet. If you are waiting for clarity, it is right to wait and equally right to stay attentive.

  • Our testimonies are for sharing

Jacob told his story to his wives. He didn’t carry it alone. The community of faith is strengthened when we rehearse what God has done, the hardships, the injustices, and the faithfulness of God through them.

  • The people around you matter

Rachel and Leah’s response made Jacob’s obedience possible in practical terms. Who are the people in your life who will say, “Do whatever God has told you”? Those people are a gift. Treasure them. Be that person for others.

  • Going home to the promise is always worth it

The road to Canaan was not without danger. Laban would pursue, but Esau was still ahead. But the direction was right. Obedience rarely removes all obstacles. It simply ensures you are walking in the right direction when you face them.

When the season ends, the story doesn’t.

Jacob left with everything he had come with, and far more than he had arrived with. He left because God said go, and he had learned, through long experience, that God could be trusted.

The same invitation is given to us.

Not every move is geographical. But every one of us will face a moment when the old season has clearly closed.  The God of Bethel, who met Jacob at a stone pillar with nothing but a dream and a promise, is the same God who calls you forward now. He has seen what you have been through. He has not been absent during the difficult years. So when He says go, go.

God can close doors.

Twenty years in the wrong place. A family built, wealth accumulated, and the blessing of God unmistakable, yet something was shifting. The faces around Jacob had changed. Laban’s sons were muttering. The warmth was gone. And into that tension came a word from God: Go back. Sometimes the most divine thing is not a grand new horizon, it’s a return.

“Jacob heard that Laban’s sons were saying, “Jacob has taken everything our father owned and has gained all this wealth from what belonged to our father.” And Jacob noticed that Laban’s attitude toward him was not what it had been. Then the Lord said to Jacob, “Go back to the land of your fathers and to your relatives, and I will be with you.” Genesis‬ ‭31‬:‭1‬-‭3‬ 

Twenty years had gone by and Jacob had married, raised a large family and accumulated great wealth. God had blessed Jacob and yet not everyone saw it that way. The door of opportunity was closing. The signs that things were not right were before him. God sometimes makes us uncomfortable in a place or with people to stir our nest. 

Go back. The command was clear. It was a return to the place where he felt personal disqualification. The deceiving years where Esau was so angry he wanted to kill him. Jacob would return to his past failure. He wouldn’t go on his own, God would be with him. It may not be easy but he wouldn’t be on his own. A promises still applicable for you and me. 

Perhaps a closed door experience is in front of you. Is the situation you are in untenable now. Are you feeling restless? These may be signs that God is repositioning you. 

Maybe there is a ‘home’ where you left 20 years ago, but it could also be a version of yourself, ‘home’ can be many things. 

Jacob had spent 20 years off-grid from the plans God had for him. He was living in the wrong place. It was now time not only to return home but return to the purpose God had for him. God redirects today. Calling His people back to the purposes and places they were made for. 

Using your head is important.

Trust God, but also use wisdom

This is an unusual passage and one we can skim over quite easily if we’re not careful.

I use the title to summarise what we are reading.

This story should encourage anyone who is working and living under unfair circumstances. The combination of trusting God and being disciplined, practically even in the environment of deception, can mean you thrive.

Jacob, however, took fresh-cut branches from poplar, almond and plane trees and made white stripes on them by peeling the bark and exposing the white inner wood of the branches. 38 Then he placed the peeled branches in all the watering troughs, so that they would be directly in front of the flocks when they came to drink. When the flocks were in heat and came to drink, 39 they mated in front of the branches. And they bore young that were streaked or speckled or spotted. 40 Jacob set apart the young of the flock by themselves, but made the rest face the streaked and dark-colored animals that belonged to Laban. Thus he made separate flocks for himself and did not put them with Laban’s animals. 41 Whenever the stronger females were in heat, Jacob would place the branches in the troughs in front of the animals so they would mate near the branches, 42 but if the animals were weak, he would not place them there. So the weak animals went to Laban and the strong ones to Jacob. 43 In this way the man grew exceedingly prosperous and came to own large flocks, and female and male servants, and camels and donkeys.” (Genesis 30 v 37-43)

A reminder that Jacob had agreed to take a disadvantaged wage, it looked like that anyway. The speckled and spotted animals would be his payment.

We will be helped in the next chapter, knowing that God had shown Jacob in a dream that his flock would produce animals with this certain look. Basically, this story tells how God would supernaturally bring increase to him, and he had to have faith. So he selected the stronger animals and intentionally bred them. Faith and wisdom are a great combination, and the stronger animals became his. He became exceedingly prosperous and fulfilled earlier promises.

So what are my takeaways from this passage?

You may be working or living in an unfair situation, but God can prosper you.

You can have faith and have a strategy at the same time. Using your brain is important!

You can make sure the wool isn’t pulled over your eyes – be wise.

I think the important lesson from this story is also that life is often a combination of the promise of God to look after you and patient endurance, whilst you strategically act with the wisdom given to you.

Stay in position: God sees what you cannot.

This may be a Laban season for you. This chapter of Jacob’s story could be yours also. Stay honest and faithful. Your integrity will speak for you. You may be working hard, and the terms are changing continually. Perhaps someone is benefiting from your integrity, but in return, they are cheating you? This is the story we are reading today.

 “After Rachel gave birth to Joseph, Jacob said to Laban, “Send me on my way so I can go back to my own homeland. 26 Give me my wives and children, for whom I have served you, and I will be on my way. You know how much work I’ve done for you.” 27 , but Laban said to him, “If I have found favour in your eyes, please stay. I have learned by divination that the Lord has blessed me because of you.” 28 He added, “Name your wages, and I will pay them.” 29 Jacob said to him, “You know how I have worked for you and how your livestock has fared under my care. 30 The little you had before I came has increased greatly, and the Lord has blessed you wherever I have been. But now, when may I do something for my own household?” 31 “What shall I give you?” he asked. “Don’t give me anything,” Jacob replied. “But if you will do this one thing for me, I will go on tending your flocks and watching over them: 32 Let me go through all your flocks today and remove from them every speckled or spotted sheep, every dark-coloured lamb and every spotted or speckled goat. They will be my wages. 33 And my honesty will testify for me in the future, whenever you check on the wages you have paid me. Any goat in my possession that is not speckled or spotted, or any lamb that is not dark-coloured, will be considered stolen.” 34 “Agreed,” said Laban. “Let it be as you have said.” 35 That same day, he removed all the male goats that were streaked or spotted, and all the speckled or spotted female goats (all that had white on them) and all the dark-coloured lambs, and he placed them in the care of his sons. 36 Then he put a three-day journey between himself and Jacob, while Jacob continued to tend the rest of Laban’s flocks.” (Genesis 30:25-36)

The time has come for Jacob. Joseph was born. It’s now 14 years since Jacob started working for his uncle Laban. He now believes it is time. He must leave and go back home. Laban knows that God has blessed him because Jacob was with him. “The Lord has blessed me because of you.” He knew it, even though he did not personally have a relationship with God.

Jacob asks what we perhaps don’t expect: the speckled, spotted, and dark-coloured animals will be his, and if any solid-coloured animal appears in his flock, then he can be called a thief.

This is the posture of someone who knows they don’t need to manipulate outcomes.

Laban agrees and then immediately cheats. That same day, he removes all the streaked, spotted, and dark animals from the general flock and puts them three days’ journey away, under the care of his own sons. He strips the gene pool before Jacob can work with it.

Jacob doesn’t erupt. He doesn’t quit. He keeps tending Laban’s flocks. Even though Laban deceives him, Jacob remains in position.

  1. Even if people don’t see it or say it, they can see God’s blessing on your life and work. Laban could see God’s work and hand on Jacob even if he didn’t recognise it.
  2. Jacob offered a fair proposal in good faith because he trusted God for his life.
  3. We leave this stage of the story with Jacob not fully aware of what has taken place. Jacob proposes a deal, Laban accepts it, and then immediately cheats.

Jacob cannot see at this stage what Laban is doing, but God can.

This may be a Laban season for you. Stay honest and faithful.

God sees what’s happening behind your back. God knows the schemes against you. God is already working on your behalf, even when you can’t see it yet.

Stay faithful. Stay honest. God is watching, God is working, and God will vindicate you.

No one’s deception can steal the blessing from your life. What God has purposed for you will come to pass, regardless of who tries to cheat you out of it.

Then God remembered

-Today I turn 60-

How did I get to this age so quickly? I blinked, I think. I’m pondering today: the years of joy and struggle have passed so quickly, prayers have been answered (and I’m so grateful to God), and some prayers have dimmed with the silent years.

“Then God remembered Rachel; he listened to her and enabled her to conceive. 23 She became pregnant and gave birth to a son and said, “God has taken away my disgrace.” 24 She named him Joseph, and said, “May the Lord add to me another son.” (Genesis 30 v 22-24)

After years of silence, waiting, watching her sister give birth again and again, tears, wondering if God had forgotten her, we read something beautiful.

“Then God remembered Rachel.” It doesn’t mean that God had forgotten Rachel and then, at last, He remembers her. It means the appointed time has come.

God’s timing has rarely matched my own. But looking back, His has always been better.

God had been listening to her. God is not impatient with our asking. He doesn’t grow tired of our repetitious prayers.

Rachel’s barrenness in her world was more than a private grief. It was a public shame. God is not only the healer of our lives but also of the shame attached to our wounds.

She is grateful, but she doesn’t stop there. She continues to be hopeful for the future.

She names him Joseph, which means “may He add.”

Rachel’s posture in the very moment of blessing is to say, “There is more. Lord, add to me”.

So that is my prayer on this birthday too. A prayer that says: You have been faithful for over 60 years. I trust You with whatever comes next. May You add to me. More of Your presence, more of Your purpose, more of the joy of watching You work.

If you are in a season that feels like God has forgotten you, He hasn’t.

If your prayers feel unanswered, they are heard.

If you are carrying shame or disappointment, that is not the end of your story.

Rachel’s story didn’t begin with Joseph. It began with years of aching, praying, and not yet seeing.

Sixty years in, I am more convinced of this than ever: God is faithful. He remembers.

Seen and heard: God shows up in the mess of life.

In one of the Bible’s more unusual stories, two sisters negotiate over fertility plants while their shared husband simply goes along with whatever arrangement has been made for him. It is messy and very strange, but at its centre is the presence of God.

“ During wheat harvest, Reuben went out into the fields and found some mandrake plants, which he brought to his mother Leah. Rachel said to Leah, “Please give me some of your son’s mandrakes.” 15 But she said to her, “Wasn’t it enough that you took away my husband? Will you take my son’s mandrakes too?” “Very well,” Rachel said, “he can sleep with you tonight in return for your son’s mandrakes.” 16 So when Jacob came in from the fields that evening, Leah went out to meet him. “You must sleep with me,” she said. “I have hired you with my son’s mandrakes.” So he slept with her that night. 17 God listened to Leah, and she became pregnant and bore Jacob a fifth son. 18 Then Leah said, “God has rewarded me for giving my servant to my husband.” So she named him Issachar.19 Leah conceived again and bore Jacob a sixth son. 20 Then Leah said, “God has presented me with a precious gift. This time my husband will treat me with honour, because I have borne him six sons.” So she named him Zebulun.21 Some time later she gave birth to a daughter and named her Dinah.” (Genesis 30 v 14-21)

This peculiar part of the story only makes sense when we know that Mandrakes in the ancient world were associated with fertility and love.

Reuben brings some of these plants to his mum, Leah, who had already given birth to Jacob’s sons but lacked his love and attention.

Rachel, the beloved wife who had not yet given Jacob any children, is desperate and will try any remedy on offer. They were not on offer. Leah’s response was that Rachel had everything; she certainly had the one thing Leah had longed for, Jacob’s love. So will she take her son’s mandrakes too?

What follows is quite bizarre, and surely there must be some more interactions?

Rachel trades a night with Jacob for the mandrakes. It is bizarre, isn’t it? Presumably, this happens not just once but twice more. Leah meets Jacob at the end of his working day and tells him he’s bought a night with him. Jacob perhaps simply shrugs his shoulders and goes along with the transaction. It seems terribly dysfunctional, but v 17 shows that God was involved, “God listened to Leah, and she became pregnant …”

Isn’t that amazing? Read it again. In His listening, God acts, and Leah becomes pregnant again and again, then bears a daughter (at the moment, nothing more is said, and no one would want to predict what would happen to Dinah, even if they could; we will get to that eventually).

Leah, the woman who is unloved, has God’s attention. This is the main point at this time.

In a very messy family story, God is present.

God does not wait for people to have their lives in order before he engages with them. He is there. Leah knows He has seen her and heard her; she is not forgotten. Perhaps this is all that faith really is and what matters.

The journey to joy can be a long one.

Leah was watching. She had spent years watching her sister Rachel and watching who Jacob would gaze upon, and she was always second. Her life could be summed up as ‘loved less and seen less’.

“When Leah saw that she had stopped having children, she took her servant Zilpah and gave her to Jacob as a wife. 10 Leah’s servant Zilpah bore Jacob a son. 11 Then Leah said, “What good fortune!”So she named him Gad.12 Leah’s servant Zilpah bore Jacob a second son. 13 Then Leah said, “How happy I am! The women will call me happy.” So she named him Asher.” (Genesis 30 v 9-13)

Rachel is still scoring more points with Jacob in her eyes, and so she gives Jacob her servant Zilpah. It really does seem an exhausting competition.

But slow down, something has changed. Leah seems to have changed. She chooses names with thoughts of fortune and happiness in mind.

The weeping unloved woman of many years, who on her wedding night was humiliated, who chose names for her first 2 children to show her misery of not being loved, has changed. The landscape has changed.

Her circumstances haven’t changed; she is still number two in the love table. Her life is still painfully complicated, but she seems not to be focusing on what she lacks. Her first four sons’ names all focused on what she didn’t have. Things are different now. The difference is her perspective on life. She is no longer looking to Jacob for her well-being. Do you see the difference? “The women will call me happy.” Her focus has changed. She has stopped looking to the same people for approval.

Joy doesn’t always arrive when circumstances change. Sometimes it arrives when we change, when we begin to notice what God is doing in the margins of our story, in the places we didn’t expect, through people and gifts we didn’t plan for.

The women would call Leah happy. And perhaps, for the first time in a long time, she was beginning to believe it herself.

Taking Matters Into Our Own Hands

We turn now to Rachel, Jacob’s second wife, but the first in his heart. She was struggling to conceive, and what follows is a familiar pattern among the people of God: when waiting becomes unbearable, the temptation is to act.

“When Rachel saw that she was not bearing Jacob any children, she became jealous of her sister. So she said to Jacob, ‘Give me children, or I’ll die!’ Jacob became angry with her and said, ‘Am I in the place of God, who has kept you from having children?’ Then she said, ‘Here is Bilhah, my servant. Sleep with her so that she can bear children for me and I too can build a family through her.’ So she gave him her servant Bilhah as a wife. Jacob slept with her, and she became pregnant and bore him a son. Then Rachel said, ‘God has vindicated me; he has listened to my plea and given me a son.’ Because of this she named him Dan.” (Genesis 30:1-6)

Is someone close to you experiencing something you desperately want for yourself? It’s not a pleasant feeling. The gap between what we have and what we long for can feel unbearable when someone else seems to have it so easily.

Rachel hadn’t learned from history. Abraham and Sarah had done the same thing with Hagar, and it hadn’t ended well. Once again, a human solution to a divine timing problem created more pain than it resolved. When the waiting becomes too much, the instinct is always to engineer something, to fill the silence with action. Rachel does exactly that.

What’s striking, though, is what happens at the moment of blessing. Rather than congratulating herself on her clever scheme, Rachel looks up. “God has vindicated me,” she says, the language of a courtroom, of a judge ruling in someone’s favour. It implies she felt she was in a dispute, perhaps with Leah, perhaps even with Jacob, who had suggested the problem lay with God himself. However tangled her methods, her instinct in that moment is to credit grace rather than cleverness. Perhaps that tells us something: even our most impatient reaching can somehow land in God’s hands.

But then a second son is born, and something has shifted.

“Rachel’s servant Bilhah conceived again and bore Jacob a second son. Then Rachel said, ‘I have had a great struggle with my sister, and I have won.’ So she named him Naphtali.” (Genesis 30:7-8)

The language has changed entirely. Where the birth of Dan prompted gratitude to God, the birth of Naphtali prompts something far more earthly, the satisfaction of settling a score. Along the way, Rachel’s longing for a child has quietly curdled into a longing for victory over her sister.

This is how comparison tends to work in us. It rarely stays still. Rachel began in genuine anguish, a woman who simply wanted a child. But somewhere between Dan and Naphtali, that grief reshaped itself into competition. She stopped asking, “Give me this good thing,” and started asking, “Let me have more than her.”

There’s also something poignant about the nature of rivalry here. Rachel declares she has won, but Leah is still there. The marriage is still complicated. The household is still fractured. Winning a round in a rivalry rarely ends it; it usually just raises the stakes for the next one.

The Bible doesn’t tell us Rachel was wrong to feel this way. It simply records her words with quiet honesty and lets the reader sit with the unease because most of us recognise it. The moment we begin to frame someone else’s life as a competition we’ve entered, we’ve already lost something more important than whatever we’re fighting for.

Two sons have been born. And Rachel, for all her gains, still sounds like someone who is losing.

Sing Before the Dawn: Leah’s lessons on praise (part 3)

“She conceived again, and when she gave birth to a son she said, “This time I will praise the Lord.” So she named him Judah.Then she stopped having children.” (Genesis 29 v 35)

This time I will praise the Lord. This time, I will put down my problem.

It was as if the Lord was saying, “Well, I love you, will I do?”

Leah came to terms with her life. She stopped embracing the problem. God was pleased, and He chose Judah for special favour.

Psalm 78: 67-68 “he rejected the tents of Joseph, he did not choose the tribe of Ephraim; but he chose the tribe of Judah, Mount Zion, which he loved.”

Psalm 114: 2 Judah became God’s sanctuary,

Judah had the special presence of God.

Leah chose to praise God rather than tell everyone how tough things were for her.

The result was that God came and placed His favour on her son.

The same favour, blessings and presence of God on Judah is available to us as we, even in difficulties, offer praise to God. God dwells in the people of praise.

The name in Hebrew is Yadah, and it means ‘God/Yahweh be praised.’

Alongside ‘to praise’, it also means ‘to revere or worship with extended hands’ or ‘to give thanks’.

Judah is the key to changing your environment. Judah is what attracts the presence of God to us. Judah is the pathway on which God will lead us through even immense difficulty. It would be very hard to be defeated, afraid, silent, grumbling or worse with a name like Judah!

Remember the Passover meal of Jesus, the last supper with his disciples before the cross? He and his disciples sang a hymn. It was called the Hallel, it was the whole of the Psalms 113-118, praise to God for his salvation from Egypt, and He being the eternal Saviour. So, hours before Jesus’ most dreadful and terrifying moment, the crucifixion and death, he sings!

The blessing of praise is this: “Your hand will be on the neck of your enemies” Genesis 49:8

“May the praise of God be in their mouths and a double-edged sword in their hands, to inflict vengeance on the nations and punishment on the peoples, to bind their kings with fetters, their nobles with shackles of iron, to carry out the sentence written against them— this is the glory of all his faithful people.” Psalm 149:6-8

Every time we praise, we are declaring to the spiritual powers that our hands are on the neck of an already defeated enemy. That is because of Jesus’ victory on the cross, where Satan was stripped of power and authority over us. Then I will praise my God and squeeze some more victory out of you that is rightfully mine.

There is a father of lies who is against you, trying to steal, kill and destroy you, and JUDAH is your greatest defence.

Those who don’t understand JUDAH are in fear of what the enemy can do as a “roaring lion prowling around looking for someone to devour” (1 Peter 5:8). But there is another LION, a far greater LION and people who JUDAH live in trust of the LION of the TRIBE OF JUDAH! (Revelation 5:8).

The Lion of the tribe of Praise has defeated and won every battle. We are called to press in, clear up, and take back what belongs to us.

Leah’s story isn’t finished, and eventually we will return to her.

Sing Before the Dawn: Leah’s lessons on praise (part 2)

Leah’s first response to God’s blessing reveals her deepest pain. The Lord has seen her misery – she acknowledges God’s awareness. But her hope is still fixed on changing Jacob’s heart. “Surely my husband will love me now.”

Perhaps you are reading this today and hoping for something to change. You have been praying for such a long time. Like Leah, you may have come up with a plan, and while you wait, you are thinking, “Surely …”

Leah’s lesson to us all is that God will wait until you have exhausted your plans and begin to praise Him through the difficulty you are facing.

Leah became pregnant and gave birth to a son. She named him Reuben,for she said, “It is because the Lord has seen my misery. Surely my husband will love me now.” 33 She conceived again, and when she gave birth to a son, she said, “Because the Lord heard that I am not loved, he gave me this one too.” So she named him Simeon. 34 Again she conceived, and when she gave birth to a son, she said, “Now at last my husband will become attached to me, because I have borne him three sons.” So he was named Levi. 35 She conceived again, and when she gave birth to a son, she said, “This time I will praise the Lord.” So she named him Judah.Then she stopped having children.” (Genesis 29 v 32-35)

Reuben (it means see, a son): Leah now knows God has seen her misery; surely she will be loved by Jacob. The problem is still her focus. The gift from God becomes a means to an end – a tool to win the affection she craves.

Simeon (it means the one who hears): Leah is still naming her pain. “I am not loved.” God hears. God responds. But notice – she’s still defining herself by what she lacks, by who doesn’t love her. Her identity is still wrapped up in her problem rather than in God’s provision.

Levi (maybe from the word attached):  Three sons. Surely this is enough? “Now at last” – there’s desperation in these words. How many blessings does it take before Jacob notices? Before he loved her? She’s still measuring God’s gifts by whether they change her circumstances with Jacob.

Judah (derived from the word praise): Everything changes with the fourth son. “This time I will praise the Lord.” Not “surely my husband will love me now.” Not “because I am not loved.” Not “now at last he will become attached to me.” This time – just praise. Pure praise to God. Leah finally moved from problem to praise. She stopped looking at what Jacob wasn’t giving her and started looking at what God was giving her.

Notice what happens: “Then she stopped having children.” When Leah’s focus shifted from her problem to praise, something changed. God had accomplished what He intended – not to change Jacob’s heart necessarily, but to change Leah’s heart.

From Judah – the son named “praise” – would come the line of kings. From Judah would come King David. From Judah would come Jesus Christ, the Messiah.

When you move to praise, God changes you. And when you change, the problem can change.

Are you still at Reuben, Simeon, or Levi? Or have you arrived at Judah – where praise is on your lips regardless of whether your circumstances have changed?