I keep asking that the God of our Lord Jesus Christ, the glorious Father, may give you the Spirit of wisdom and revelation, so that you may know him better. Ephesians 1:17
It’s more than knowledge and intellectual growth. You can’t say you received it because you previously achieved something.
It is a gift.
It is to know the right decision at the right time.
It is to know how to live in this next chapter of your life which may have suddenly changed or you may have chosen it.
It is to know how to do life the way your Creator wants.
There have been moments when I made the wrong decision. There are times when I have done the opposite of what I have searched for. I don’t know why. But God brought good out of the bad and I regained my footing and sought after wisdom so that it looks like it was meant to be.
When I held my child for the first time, ‘Give me wisdom’.
As I began new places of work, “Give me wisdom”.
Approaching difficult meetings, “Give me wisdom”.
When people have come into my life and when people have had to walk away from me, “Give me wisdom”.
In the seasons of loss and sadness, with tears of grief preventing me seeing the promises in the Bible, “Give me wisdom”.
The more you experience wisdom the more you long for it. So 40 years on from learning the prayer it is still the greatest thing I pray for, “Give me wisdom”.
A little while ago I wrote this prayer to God. I hope it helps someone …
Within me lies the potential to know you more. Outside of me lies the potential for a new illumination in my life.
I need to know your ways. I need to know what is from you and what is from man. I need to know the counterfeit. I need discernment.
I desire wisdom in dealing with people. In my listening and in my speaking I need to not fail. I don’t search for wisdom of my mind only, I do need to grow there in my intellect. But this is a wisdom of my spirit that I seek.
There are days when I walk with what seems to be a flickering candle. Today I ask for more than a candle. I ask for divine beams of revelation so that I may know you more in all that I do. Lead me from the shallow end where the deep calls to deep. Let my words become far more significant. Words are just words. Yet words that are illuminated, that come from the place of wisdom and revelation carry so much more weight. I want my spirit, soul, mind and strength to be in my words. I want my words to move people.
Break me so that I no longer love the dark or the candle. Break into me so that the shekinah fills every part of me. I seek no idolatrous God-shaped substitutes. I seek the glory of Yourself that cuts and burns and melts and removes all strange fire within me. I was made for your glory and your glory I desire.
So I draw near to the light, to the illumination, to You.