There are times when we badly get it wrong. Judas had totally misunderstood the mission of Jesus and had tried to advance the cause. His plan failed.
“Early in the morning, all the chief priests and the elders of the people made their plans how to have Jesus executed. So they bound him, led him away and handed him over to Pilate the governor. When Judas, who had betrayed him, saw that Jesus was condemned, he was seized with remorse and returned the thirty pieces of silver to the chief priests and the elders. “I have sinned,” he said, “for I have betrayed innocent blood.” “What is that to us?” they replied. “That’s your responsibility.” So Judas threw the money into the temple and left. Then he went away and hanged himself.” (Matthew 27 v 1-5)
Deep regret over his betrayal and knowing he has sinned, he returns to those who represent God. He is looking for help. The weight is too heavy. But he returns to the wrong people.
These leaders would never carry his burden. They have used Judas. They offer no resolution for him. In just a few hours the right person was going to die for Judas. But he cannot see this as he is with the wrong people.
Judas still has the thirty coins of insult, of no real value, the amount of a slave accidently killed (Exodus 21:32). But this is no accident and Jesus is no slave. He throws the coins back at them and leaves. What he does next is because he is with the wrong person, himself. He was hours away from the death of his master and days away from it all making sense. For him there was only one thing left to do.